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always eat breakfast and STAY HYDRATED!

ok so this was a lesson i learned last year, but i figured it was a really good one so i still had to share it. so.. pretty much one day in a physics lab i was working with electricity and water with my best friend. (yeah i know not a good idea to mix electricity with water - but it was the lab not my idea) i had physics 1st and 2nd period, and it wasn\'t a day out of the ordinary. i had my normal 1 pop tart for breakfast and nothing much to drink besides a bit of the water i bring to school. once again, nothing out of my normal.

well apparently this day WAS different than all the rest, because before i knew it i was blacked out on the floor of my classroom. i soon woke up from what i thought was a dream to see my science teacher holding me up trying to get me awake. (not exactly the guy i wanted to see when i woke up from my dreams ... but its better than being dead right?) well... i think you pretty much know what comes next. school nurse gets called, school nurse calls 911, ambulence comes, emts put me on stretcher, ambulence goes to hospital, hospital means tons of blood work and scans and tests, until finally they let you go home with a simple.. you\'re fine we don\'t know what\'s wrong (story of my life btw!)

well lets just say that was NOT the end of my story. i sure wish it was though. that happened on a wednesday.. that thursday i took the SATs (almost passed out with a KILLER headache during them).. wanna know why? turns out the idiot doctor that said i don\'t have a concussion at the hospital and to not bother looking out for one.. was completely wrong. not only did i have a concussion i had a Complex concussion ending in about 3 - 4 months of concussion and post concussion syndrome effects. (basically that year ended VERY sucky)

but lesson learned.. if i had eaten a better breakfast (not some sugar thing) and actually had water or SOMETHING to drink. I would most likely have stayed vertical. so beware! do not try to skip breakfast to lose weight.. or skip it bc you don\'t have time.. grab something on the go and stay hydrated.. because months of nonstop headaches are no walk in the park!

with college right around the corner and responsibilities pulling on me in all sorts of directions.. i figured i needed an escape. so i've decided to find that escape in writing.

here you will find the stories and lessons i'm sure i will learn along my path towards a new chapter in my life. i intend to not only have fun this year, but learn many things along the way. so sit back.. and enjoy the ride =] ...

who here believes that just because you are a few years older than someone you deserve the respect of someone dozens of years older than them? i personally dont

just because you are over 21 does not mean you automatically deserve the same respect as mothers, fathers, and other adults. yes in the correct terms you are considered an adult.. but just because youre 21 doesnt mean you can automatically get it

yes coaches are supposed to be respected, yes they are teachers in a way and yes they are adults compaired to their players but they still have to earn the respect they want just like everyone else.

changing rules from year to year, simply changing your mind about a decision within one weekend, or being mad and mean one half of practice and this perfect little angel the second half does not call for respect earned in my eyes! in my eyes that mean... semi bipolar and well.. not adult-like.

i know lately ive been in a really bitchy mood towards anyone that annoys me in the slightest way but i cant help it... im stressed out between school, schoolwork, cheerleading, dance, my job, and my boyfriend and friends i just cant do it all. im one person being asked to do wayyy to many things and expected at the same time to rearrange my life around the thing i hate the most... cheerleading... not gonna happen... not even the slightest chance in HELL!!

i like my job... actually i love working.. i love the people there, i dont usually mind the work, and i love the paychecks (lol ok sometimes i get pretty angry bc they arent that huge and taxes suck! but w/e) and dancing is only an hour a week.. no biggy there... and i love my boyfriend to death!! i would never sacrifice the little time i have with him! and school comes first alwayss at least in my parent's eyes... and me being under basically their say if i do bad in school... there goes boyfriend time.. there goes friend time.. there goes work... so i have a lot riding on these things.

dont get me wrong i love most of the people on my squad... we're such a close team i can't bring myself to quit no matter how much i hate the sport. but my coach can just be sooo annoying at times ... blabbering on and on about how she deserves the utmost respect when she cant even have the decency of showing us some consistancy. but dont get me wrong either.. ive known my coach for like 4 years now and shes an amazing person and i love her most of the time but sometimes she just gets soooo ridiculous its insane.. and im just like ok if you want respect.. treat us with some back or youre not getting any.

whateverrr... im over drama.. im over caring... im just gonna focus on my school work and boyfriend and work and things that actually matter in life.. next year is my last year ever of cheerleading and its pointless to care when its just something to beef up my college resume. o well.. maybe ill change my tune soon... i hope

thanks for reading!

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ughh of course the day that i have been looking forward to all week.. and most of last week gets killed instantly with a little bit of throw-up.. yeah i know details gross... but yeah well im left here bumbed and sickly while i couldve been shopping, lying on the beach, eating good food, and going to an awesome movie. life can be so cruel at times... well a lot of the time.

i dont really feel like writing anymore.. its depressing me more than i already am. but i guess ill go wallow in my boyfriend missing, sitting over a toilet while missing the greatest day of my week ness. yeah im pathetic... get over it

ughh i have so much to do... i have drivers ed every morning from 8 - 1030 for almost 3 weeks, i work part time at a retail store who keeps giving me insane hours like 2-9 3 days straight, and i tutor a little girl in math once a week, along with hanging out with my boyfriend, my other friends, and spending time with my family. my brother has a wedding coming up this upcoming spring, my cousin has a wedding now pushed up to this december and i have all my friends turning a milestone age all at the same time. its so hectic idk wut to do. i can't take on less work because then my parents wouldnt be happy, i cant take on more work because then my boyfriend gets upset and i can't spend every waking moment that i have left with my boyfriend because then my friends will get upset.

its a lose lose situation really... but then soon ill have cheerleading starting up again and possibly a 2 week long babysitting job (not 2 weeks straight .. just 2 weeks like 2 or 3 hours a day.. but that on top of work would be nuts)

then the carnival is coming up and my friend from florida is coming to visit soon, and my friends wanna plan a day to lake compounce.

which don't get me wrong im really happy that i have stuff to do because i hate being bored but sometimes too much is just too much.. its like im on overdrive all the times... like now ... ive got tutoring at 4 then work at 5 .. they run back to back to each other and  the mother of the girl i tutor is at work and idk if ill be able to change the time so i can get to work on time.. which i need to know otherwise i have to call work to tell them im going to be a little late.. which isnt a problem i can do that but idk its just so ontop of each other its like i never have just a break in between to catch my breath...

and now on top of all things i lost my favorite sweatshirt.. the sweatshirt my boyfriend gave me (it was once his but it doesnt fit him anymore) i can't find it anywhere and it killed me not being able to find it even after i tore apart my closet... i can hope itll show up but i still have a feeling in the pit of my stomach that its gone forever... which really upset me.. but mayb itll show up.. or mayb he'll grow out of another sweatshirt and i can have that one. not that he'll really believe that i wont lose this one too.. but i dont do things like that if i lose something and i get another there is like no chance in hell im losing that item twice. i keep such good track of it the second time around. but yeah... im done.. ill write again sometime later...